Another Sleepless Night (Thank You "Mutual Friend")

I can't sleep. I wanted to sleep ... six hours ago. But I went out to hang with mutual friend. In all honesty, I had a great time. And after eight hours of reading technical documents in my living room, I really needed to get out of the house for a bit.

So I thank you, mutual friend. I truly do.

Still, sleep would have been nice.

Lately when I'm out, I find that I don't really want to be out. I go out to see friendly faces ... and faces of friends. I enjoy their company, especially the friends. They are a good comfort (and I hope "they" know who they are).

But there's something missing now. Which is why I can't sleep right now.

Don't misunderstand. I'm not the mess I've been in the past. At least not tonight. I'm very sober and very cognizant of what's happening.

I just know there's something missing. And I need to come to some sort of terms with that.