30 January 2009
It hasn't completely sunk in despite the facts that it happened over twelve hours ago and that I knew it was going to happen sooner rather than later. Maybe when I come to complete terms with it, I might make sense out of it and find the silver lining. Right now, all I see are the clouds. It isn't completely all about what transpired today. I take into account all that has occurred over the past five months that led up to the moment. The only thing I keep coming up with is that I have lost more than I can express and there are only two or three people who can fully understand how deeply this is affecting me.